Kills me. I feel so pointless now. In the hour since, I only feel worse. I can't believe it has only been an hour and a half. Time seems to drag. I remember all the things that make me love her. I hope she remembers the same. I thought I made her happy. She said last night that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me, and today...today I don't know. I want to grow old with her. My heart actually hurts physically. I will give her the space she needs, but I can't stand the thought of not feeling her kisses. I can't stand the thought of never again waking up to see her smiling face. I never want to be with anyone else. She is the one. No one will ever be that for me but her. This is how I feel. I wonder how she feels right now?